Phantom Burns

I Name You, I See You, I Feel You

A name is so powerful… You don’t realize it’s power until someone has power over you….

How I want to hear my name said with love and longing…

Not lust and sweat, but with quavering, sweet breath…

The quiet and strong breath that draws your lips together as if magnets…

It makes your heart beats such as those of a migrating bird’s wings, self-assured in direction and purpose…

I want my mind to be filled with white and marvel…

Filled with you, your lips, your tongue, your heat against me…

And it strangely makes one burn from the inside out…

Even with my eyes closed I know yours are too because I trust my love…

But that is when a blow comes…

When your spirit is ripped out of you… when you are not looking…

Open your eyes, I have opened mine… to the danger and ferocious fire that passion it…

If you play with fire, you will get burned…

And burns don’t ever go away, they mar your skin, the fragile flesh of your heart forever…

One burned to ash,

Anna Krichbaum Geller

Straw stealin stinkerin snarkerin kats!

There is nothing like starting your day with a huge pot of coffee, Smokey and the Bandit and stinky kitties!

Well minus the stinky kitties. I don't know why but my one kitty is so stinky lately. Maybe she has poopy paws. It is a chronic kitty issue. So apparently is stealing my straws! My new kitty I have found likes to play fetch with straws. When I'm sleepin... Yes I awaken to a, "mew, mew, mew, prrrr, mew, mew, mew" and then a paw on my face and more mewin and a straw in my face. Then I wake up and throw it! Damn kats, but I love them more then anything! <3 <3 <3

So Mr. Bear will be coming home on Saturday. Time flies! I think it's because his daddy is sick and he can't handle being sick with a toddler hehehe. Makes me smile lol. I'm bad;) But I am excited he is coming home, I missed him a lot. He always sounds different when he comes home. He sounds like a Pennsyltuckian, yuuupppp!

So I accomplished one of my goals for this week so far and that is making a plan for the gym and sticking to it. I made a pretty bad ass excel spreadsheet. Check it out:

If you want a copy I'd be happy to share. The letters on the left hand side show which part of the body they are for, Legs, Core, Arms and Back. So I made the dates in it permanent so I can't fake on em! So I'm starting off at 146 lbs and hope to get to 125 lbs by June.

Well I am waiting for Miss. Raven to get here so we can have some fun. Going to go to the dollar store! Her and I are super excited for Bear to come home. I love having days at her place with him, it's so fun and I can get homework done because she helps me<3!

Man I love Smokey and the Bandit his buddy just got the shit kicked out of him for the love of his dog! For the love of our mutts!

Welcome home baby Bear!

~Anna Banana

Having a hard time...

I'm having a really hard time motivating myself to go to the gym... to file... to do homework... I don't know what's going on with me. I've been super hungry and pigging out. What is going on with me??! I'm not menstruating... maybe I'm ovulating. Jesus.


That's why I'm writing. I'm hoping if I keep writing then everything will work its self out... But I feel that is ludicrous! How can writing journal entries help me get motivated? I have no idea... O.K. I need to try and make this a productive blog.


1) Only allow myself a glass of wine if I accomplish my workout goal of the day.


2) No TV until my homework is done.


3) No bedtime until my chores are done.


So what else can I do to motivate myself? Any ideas? Help!