The Sweetness of Love is any Kind of Onion

Peeling those layers will surely make you cry, will you keep at it or are you worth more then all those tears?

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

A Kitty Hat for a Kitty Girl

I was inspired by the now popular animal hats that have ears and such and decided to crochet my own. Just use any hat pattern then crochet the ears separately and sew on. 


Ears:
Ch 13, Ch 1 and turn.
Repeat for 2 rows.
On 4th row dec then sc in middle until last 2 sts and dec again.
Repeat for next 3 rows.
Then sc until you have only one st in the row. This is the tip of the ear.
To make larger you can sc all the way around the outer sts.


Tufts:
For the ear tufts I used a lighter. Wrap the yarn around the light about 15-20 times depending how much tuft you want. Then tie off one side with separate piece of yarn. Take off lighter and cut the round of yarn. Take the part you tied it and tie that into your remaining loop. Fasten off. You may trim down the tuft to make it more realistic.



Monday, July 25, 2011

Kitty Inspired and a Poem to be Desired

Sometimes I don't know where to begin in my blog. I suppose it would be fun to discuss my crazy animals latest debacle and my newest funky craft project. But I'd also love to give a hand to poetry and write deep provoking thoughts. Today I will give my hand at the latter and throw in a kitty tale as well.


The Earth's True Samurai


O'er the tail and through perked ears my eyes do fly.
Just so the bird does lie.
Lain down on beaded grass, blue-green and azure sky.
Whispers stroke fine hairs, soft and fire kissed.
Telling tales of warm blood and plum feathered wishes.
This is the hunters time.
Pink dawn burns on in answer.
Earth rules here, the red one ever hers, samurai of elements.
Slave of the stalk, sultry lover of the midnight tainted above.
He feels her calling him.
A voice scented of wild green onions, salty slugs and brown hare.
But just so the bird still lies.
Crouched with sun sleeked muscles tight does the vassal do his duty.
And just so the bird does lie.
And just so the hunter does leap.
And just so the mother shrieks from above.
And just so the bird does die.


This was inspired by my orange tabby's latest kills. A speckled orange brown bird, large it was and last night a baby bunny. I found him cracking his brain bones on my porch. Still need to clean the guts up but the damn cat ate the whole bunny! First time I caught them actually eating one.






Much love of cats,
Anna K. Geller

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Phantom Burns

I Name You, I See You, I Feel You
A name is so powerful… You don’t realize it’s power until someone has power over you….
How I want to hear my name said with love and longing…
Not lust and sweat, but with quavering, sweet breath…
The quiet and strong breath that draws your lips together as if magnets…
It makes your heart beats such as those of a migrating bird’s wings, self-assured in direction and purpose…
I want my mind to be filled with white and marvel…
Filled with you, your lips, your tongue, your heat against me…
And it strangely makes one burn from the inside out…
Even with my eyes closed I know yours are too because I trust my love…
But that is when a blow comes…
When your spirit is ripped out of you… when you are not looking…
Open your eyes, I have opened mine… to the danger and ferocious fire that passion it…
If you play with fire, you will get burned…
And burns don’t ever go away, they mar your skin, the fragile flesh of your heart forever…
One burned to ash,
Anna Krichbaum Geller

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Straw stealin stinkerin snarkerin kats!

There is nothing like starting your day with a huge pot of coffee, Smokey and the Bandit and stinky kitties!
Well minus the stinky kitties. I don't know why but my one kitty is so stinky lately. Maybe she has poopy paws. It is a chronic kitty issue. So apparently is stealing my straws! My new kitty I have found likes to play fetch with straws. When I'm sleepin... Yes I awaken to a, "mew, mew, mew, prrrr, mew, mew, mew" and then a paw on my face and more mewin and a straw in my face. Then I wake up and throw it! Damn kats, but I love them more then anything! <3 <3 <3

So Mr. Bear will be coming home on Saturday. Time flies! I think it's because his daddy is sick and he can't handle being sick with a toddler hehehe. Makes me smile lol. I'm bad;) But I am excited he is coming home, I missed him a lot. He always sounds different when he comes home. He sounds like a Pennsyltuckian, yuuupppp!

So I accomplished one of my goals for this week so far and that is making a plan for the gym and sticking to it. I made a pretty bad ass excel spreadsheet. Check it out:




























If you want a copy I'd be happy to share. The letters on the left hand side show which part of the body they are for, Legs, Core, Arms and Back. So I made the dates in it permanent so I can't fake on em! So I'm starting off at 146 lbs and hope to get to 125 lbs by June.

Well I am waiting for Miss. Raven to get here so we can have some fun. Going to go to the dollar store! Her and I are super excited for Bear to come home. I love having days at her place with him, it's so fun and I can get homework done because she helps me<3!

Man I love Smokey and the Bandit his buddy just got the shit kicked out of him for the love of his dog! For the love of our mutts!

Welcome home baby Bear!

~Anna Banana

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Having a hard time...

I'm having a really hard time motivating myself to go to the gym... to file... to do homework... I don't know what's going on with me. I've been super hungry and pigging out. What is going on with me??! I'm not menstruating... maybe I'm ovulating. Jesus.


That's why I'm writing. I'm hoping if I keep writing then everything will work its self out... But I feel that is ludicrous! How can writing journal entries help me get motivated? I have no idea... O.K. I need to try and make this a productive blog.


1) Only allow myself a glass of wine if I accomplish my workout goal of the day.


2) No TV until my homework is done.


3) No bedtime until my chores are done.


So what else can I do to motivate myself? Any ideas? Help!

Friday, February 25, 2011

A Beautiful Day with a Beautiful Lady!

Wanted to blog a bit about my lovely day with Raven that we are having!

6:00: Woke up to take a shower and get ready for school. Enjoyed the early morning with John.
7:00-8:00: Was driving to MC, but then got my MC Alert that classes were delayed. So basically drove around for an hour on Georgia to get back to John and Raven's place. 
8:00-9:00: Chilled with Raven in bed while we did our finances and I looked up classes on Quilting.
9:00-11:00: Cleaned the Apartment with my girl!
11:00-11:30: Raven's in the shower and getting ready, so I'm blogging and chilling on the computer looking up sushi recipes and new crochet patterns.


To be continued...

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Lost Love, Lovely Eyes

English 102 Journal Entry #5
February 15th, 2011
Lost Love, Lovely Eyes
Dear Lost Love,
                There are reminders of you everywhere. The caramel splotch on my lamb’s wool slippers… In every song, every lyric sung that drifts by my ears… as if you were the one whispering it there. One song stood out to me today. Made me realize this is how you feel. Here it is:

So long lovely eyes
Somehow we have found ourselves tonight with
No more happy sighs
Hold your breath & hope for something better

We got so far away
From the fire that we started
How did we get so fucking cold
So fucking cold

So now ease your mind
All good things must have an ending, how we
Live, love, laughed & cried
But matters they seem like just a fantasy

We got so far away
From the fire that we started
How did we get so fucking cold
So fucking cold

How did we get so
How did we get so fucking
How did we get so fucking cold
So fucking cold


                That was “So Long Lovely Eyes” by the Toadies… Is that what you said to yourself when you let me go? You always said how green my eyes were, how they glowed and made you smile. You always said how much you loved me and you would never let me down. Never leave me… But you did... because I drove you away... I turned cold. I’m sorry.
Love Always and Forever.
Anna

Thursday, February 10, 2011

In Praise of Jane Austen for EN102, MC Spring 2011

In Praise of Jane Austen
 by Anna Krichbaum Geller, February 10th, 2011
Can you imagine a life of rural gentility? Quiet summer evenings, sipping tea on your terrace with your close and intimate friends. Making a subtle and yet intentional glance to the handsome nobleman playing croquet on the green, perfectly manicured lawn. Every detail so carefully cultivated every nuance, sigh, remark, made with care and in some cases deviously. This is how Jane Austen set the feel and tone of her novels, pulling us into a world of formal, country elegance. Here is an excerpt from Chapter 6 in Jane’s most popular novel Pride and Prejudice;
“Occupied in observing Mr. Bingley's attentions to her sister, Elizabeth was far from suspecting that she was herself becoming an object of some interest in the eyes of his friend. Mr. Darcy had at first scarcely allowed her to be pretty; he had looked at her without admiration at the ball; and when they next met, he looked at her only to criticize. But no sooner had he made it clear to himself and his friends that she hardly had a good feature in her face, than he began to find it was rendered uncommonly intelligent by the beautiful expression of her dark eyes. To this discovery succeeded some others equally mortifying. Though he had detected with a critical eye more than one failure of perfect symmetry in her form, he was forced to acknowledge her figure to be light and pleasing; and in spite of his asserting that her manners were not those of the fashionable world, he was caught by their easy playfulness. Of this she was perfectly unaware; to her he was only the man who made himself agreeable nowhere, and who had not thought her handsome enough to dance with.” (Austen, 1993)
In this excerpt Jane’s Hero is finally recognizing his original prejudice against the Heroine. See how she elegantly follows his thoughts and paints a picture of her Heroine from his perspective? This is an example of Austen’s literary genius.
Her novels may have been filled with melodrama and romance but Jane led a fairly ordinary and honestly boring life. Jane Austen was born December 16, 1775 in Steventon, Hampshire, England and died July 18, 1817 in Winchester, Hampshire, England. Ms. Austen was the daughter of a clergyman and one of seven children. (The Penguin Biographical Dictionary of Women, 1998) She was never married and was a longtime companion to her sister Cassandra. This woman of country English nobility made her mark through her writing. She wrote 6 novels, Sense and Sensibility, Pride and Prejudice, Mansfield Park, Emma, Persuasion, and Northanger Abbey. She published them anonymously but is recognized now as one of the most influential female English novelists of the 19th century.
Jane Austen should be praised not only for contributing such brilliant literary works to the world. But she must be acknowledged for more! She set the tone for novels in the 19th century, mixing comedy and drama with the beauty of her easy voice and graceful prose. She lived through her romantic and comic tales when her life was anything but. She should be respected for a young woman writing her heart out to other women in a male dominated world. Finally, Jane Austen should be most praised for her devotion to her sister Cassandra which I feel was the truest and good of all her romantic tales.
Jane and Cassandra were engaged but the marriages never came to fruition. So she led a simple life with her sister and wrote about her aspirations for them through her novels; to become married to a rich man, and have many children, to find happiness in love. This never came to be. Maybe that is why she could describe ordinary life with such ability and ease of words. Because ordinary life had to be what consumed her hours of the day. She was praising that existence of the subtle, quiet lives of the country gentry.
She had great admirers who felt as much, such as Sir Walter Scott, the greatest novelist in her day. He said in 1826 in his Journal,
"That young lady has a talent for describing the involvements and feelings and characters of ordinary life which is to me the most wonderful thing I ever met with. “ (The Penguin Biographical Dictionary of Women, 1998)
He couldn’t have said it better. That is one area that I can find not one fault against her! She contributed much to the literary world and this is the dearest of her offerings.
But Jane Austen must be acknowledged for her offerings to the women’s movement as well! Austen was active as a feminist by writing novels during a time when she had to remain anonymous to avoid being snubbed by the 19th century upper classes because she was a woman. In fact she wasn’t even recognized for her work until several decades after her death in 1817. Furthermore, her female characters would only marry for love instead of financial security and social rank. By writing her main characters as strong women with spotlessly clean reputations she was standing firm in her faith to women kind as independent, having their own minds and hearts! She changed how novels were written since, even by male authors!
So many novels were modeled after Jane’s books. The author James Cooper’s wrote Precaution less than a decade after Jane’s Persuasion. (Encyclopedia of the United States in the Nineteenth Century, 2000) These novels are known under the genre of “Novels of Manners” and goes on in popularity into the 20th century. (The Bloomsbury Dictionary of English Literature, 1997) But not everyone agrees that Jane influences literature positively.
The critics would say that Jane Austen tainted Britain and created a romantic epidemic of novels by authors such as Bulwer, and Dickens, and Charlotte Bronte. Interestingly Charlotte Bronte who wrote the famous Jane Eyre was actually one of Austen’s worst critics! She said in a letter to a relative regarding Jane’s novel Emma,
“I have likewise read one of Miss Austen's works "Emma" - read it with interest and with just the degree of admiration which Miss Austen herself would have thought sensible and suitable - anything like warmth or enthusiasm; anything energetic, poignant, heartfelt, is utterly out of place in commending these works: all demonstration the authoress would have met with a well-bred sneer, would have calmly scorned as outré and extravagant... she ruffles her reader by nothing vehement, disturbs him by nothing profound: the Passions are perfectly unknown to her; she rejects even a speaking acquaintance with that stormy Sisterhood…” (Bronte, 1850)
A bit harsh to say Jane was anything by heartfelt. Look at her last and most mature book Persuasion; in this great work she aptly describes the pain the heroine feels longing for her lost beau. I could feel it, I having lost many beaus, as I turned each page and understood how my heroine pined and sorrowed in silence. I believe it is the most down-to-earth romance that Jane Austen ever wrote and the peak of beauty. I believe Miss. Bronte and Miss. Austen were two very different people, one reserved and one passionate, so it makes sense the headstrong Bronte would lash out at someone with some manners and sense.
            In conclusion, Jane Austen should be celebrated for gifting the literary world with her great novels. She should be recognized for how she set the tone for how novels were written since and into the 20th century, with charming romances in simple settings and complex characters. She may have lived through her novels a romantic life even as hers was dull in comparison but she reveled in making a small living off her novels. Jane Austen a single, poor, pastor’s daughter undertook the role of a writer. In that she should be most praised for the world in which she lived she would have been shunned. Ms. Austen, I hope you and Cassandra are smiling secret smiles to each other in heaven, you deserve them.

Bibliography

Austen, J. (1993). Pride and Prejudice. Barnes Noble Classics.
Bronte, C. (1850, April 12). Letter from Charlotte Bronte to W.S. Williams. The Brontes: Their Friendships, Lives, and Correspondence, 3, 99. (T. Wise, Ed.) Oxford, England.
Encyclopedia of the United States in the Nineteenth Century. (2000). LITERATURE. Retrieved February 8, 2011, from Credo Reference: http://mchoudini.montgomerycollege.edu:2211/entry/galeus/literature
The Bloomsbury Dictionary of English Literature. (1997). Novel of manners. Retrieved February 8, 2011, from Credo Reference: http://www.credoreference.com/entry/blit/novel_of_manners
The Penguin Biographical Dictionary of Women. (1998). Austen, Jane (1775 - 1817). Retrieved February 8, 2011, from Credo Reference: http://mchoudini.montgomerycollege.edu:2211/entry/penbdw/austen_jane_1775_1817

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Journal Entry #3, EN102

English 102 Journal Entry #3
February 8th, 2011
High for Today is 102, Low is Hot Coffee
                Yesterday was a frustrating day that turned into a frustrating today that is going to turn into a frustrating week… Bear had a temperature of 102 degrees at the Doctors office yesterday. They said he has a virus that is going around and guess what… it’s going to last 3 to 5 days. Thank god I have made arrangements with my mother before school started. We arranged our schedules so if he was sick on Monday, Wednesday or Friday she could stay home from school. (She works at Gallaudet University) And if he was sick Tuesday or Thursday then I would stay home with him, I don’t have school anyway. This has put a dent in my pet sitting job… but my employer is very understanding and is flexible when I can let his dogs out to pee.
                So let me explain frustrating... Barely drank a drop of my coffee and Mr. Bear decides to purposely spill it EVERYWHERE, all over my bedside table, my crochet basket where I was working on a scarf for my friend’s birthday, my new bed linens that are white as snow annnndddd he laughed his little ass off… Yea… I think I was most annoyed because I didn’t get to drink my yummy coffee at 630am versus being upset about coffee all over my stuff... Oh Tikeitis! This is what I call the disease of the young and their poor immune deficient parents… Nothing can protect you from Tikeitis... It is a grim diagnosis.
                Cheers… Hopefully not hot coffee though…

Anna Krichbaum Geller

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

English 102 Journal Entry Two
February 2nd, 2011

Dreamers, Midnights, Buttons and Tabby Cats.

I was having a fitful night of sleep and more livid than usual dreams. I dreamt of black and white sheep that rolled into ninjas who were trying to kill me, unsuccessfully I might add. I dreamt of floating under a bridge and gazing up at a colorful mosaic. It was so peaceful. The water reflected as water does on the night blue, azure and teal tiles. Then I dreamt of her. My poor lost kitty. She had been missing for almost a month; I assumed she had been eaten by our neighborhood fox. I dreamt of her little head, spread in half, in a large yowl at the window, pleading to come in. Then I woke up. I felt very strange and looked at the clock, it was 2am. I fell right back to sleep and dreamt no more….
                In the morning when I was woken up by my son I was already 7! I was running really late, my alarm didn’t wake me up as it always does. It was like I slept in a trance… I got ready as fast as I could snap snaps and button buttons! I gave my son a kiss and ran down the steps two at a time! Almost down I looked up and there just as in my dream I saw my beautiful lost kitty’s face, wide in a great big yowl. I screamed, “TOKER! TOKER! OH MY GOD! TOKER!” I was sure she was dead and gone, I couldn’t believe what I was seeing, what was happening as I flew the door open and scooped her into my arms. I cried with grins and "thank yous" to whoever could hear! My parent’s stood at the top of the stairs with my son Bear. They couldn’t believe it either. I carried her upstairs and we all petted her and gave her kisses. Bear kept saying, “Toker’s home, she got eaten by a fox!” I agreed with him that this couldn’t be happening….
                What does it mean that my dreams come true? This has happened before. It always catches me off guard... I don’t know… I do know though, that Midnight Toker is home and a piece of my heart has returned to its place.
                Oh did I mention we had already gotten another cat…!!

Anna Krichbaum Geller

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Gooses, Pups, Honey and Spoons

English 102 Journal Entry One


January 27th, 2010
Gooses, Pups, Honey and Spoons.

An army of snow came streaming down against the soft glow of the porch lights. Every pace past the thin window increased the anxiety of an invasion. A blizzard was upon my family again. Another trial to overcome. Only two yester-morrows did the ancient furnace of our home meet it's final demise. He died quietly in his sleep... or at least in our sleep. I did not occur to me our heat source had dissipated. Not until I met with the gooses stepping out of the shower. 


Gooses were not so bad, a hot shower was appreciated, their honking could be tolerated. For one night and two days life was quilts and sedentary activities and also healthy fats for calories to keep warm. We still had power and made due with space heaters in individual rooms. All was well with that but not for the young pup of the house! Bear is cheerful, expressive and strong of face and mind. He is my son. My beautiful son of a half and two years. The Bear roared and bounded and protected his territory from intruders! In other words, my poor neurotic standard poodle Rhapsody. Then the attentions of the mighty brown bear moved onto Willow Jesabella the cat... Poor Bella... She just had been spayed this day.


A new furnace is adopted into our 1960's craftsman style home... We enjoy the blissful heat, it warms out hearts and hands. then we feast on Pot Roast I had prepared in the afternoon. Suddenly the mines blast! !he soldiers bayonet our defences from the cold! The army has invaded... so the bloody power goes out... and the battle for warmth rages on  for over four and twenty hours!


We were eventually rescued by our underground allies and friends. They whisked us away to Raven's Safehouse and Sanctuary. I am safe here, my son is safe here. We filled our belly's with hot food and mead for mineown. Hunger and thirst quenched, Raven and I gave Bear a bubble bath that would of made a genies wish proud (if one ever wished)!  Then he guzzled down hot chocolate and marshmallows and fell asleep his face alight in the dark room by the tele.


Oh my sweet honeyed friends. If my friends are the honey and my tea is my life... Who or what is the spoon?


Sincerely,


Sunday, January 23, 2011

Having fun with myself!

I am just having a dandy time sitting in my bed on my netbook with my son Bear while he watches "Martha Speaks" which is a really cute show!


My bestfriend Raven turned me on to Goodreads Books on facebook. It's really cool, here's a link:
http://apps.facebook.com/good_reads/home?container=facebook


Also found a cool new blog called a A Hand-Woven Life:
http://handwovenlife.blogspot.com/2010/01/free-basket-pattern-sites.html

Started making a cowl for Bear since he has only one scarf. Here's the pattern:
http://lionbrand.com/patterns/L0048.html?r=1

Oh and got a new kitty who loves to snuggle which I crochet, and while I eat and while I sleep, basically ALL THE TIME! I love her!

Start Spring Semester tomorrow!! I have my classes all lined up starting at 8am till noon on MWF. So hopefully I can get work done on TR and the weekend. No more partying for me, my break is over hehe.

I really need a new bed and to rearrange my room it's driving me crazy. I think it's very important to rearrange everything every season. Fresh start you know.

Also have mounds of laundry to get to and this kid wants a "samich" so go to mommy dash!

Love,
Anna banana fofanna

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Finally...
the end of my grief...


It's about time too. It is exactly 2 months today from when we broke up and I can recognize that when I feel sad and think of him, I am not thinking of him. I miss being with someone, having someone to hold and comfort me when things are awful. When Toker (my cat) went missing a week ago, it was so hard and I was crying all the time. I missed Brendan so much and a good friend broke it down for me. What I would really be missing.. "Do you miss him now?", "NO!". I am just lonely. Now that my grieving period is over it is time to start a new chapter!


Falling in love with myself. Peeling away these layers are going to be way more painful then falling in love with another. I am not sure I ever have loved myself. At least in the way a person should to be happy and healthy. It's not so much a confidence issue, more... 
Let me give you an example of a dream I have on occasion that I call my Shadowman Dreams...


"He always comes and is a dark shadow, with arms and legs and lips. I always glow when I see him and feel deep down my need. It is always an embrace, a kiss, no more. But those embraces are so heavy and slow, dark and deep, otherworldly. I feel so completely and utterly loved that I feel it overflowing. It seeps out of my mouth, nose, my eyes, like mercury, I can see it glowing from my shadowed embrace. He loves me..." -by Anna Geller on 1/18/11

That's not true.. 
That shadowman is me.
I realize now, after loosing my third love, these dreams are my subconscious trying to love me. 

This needs to be a conscious everyday affair! But how?  I honestly do not know... Shouldn't this be an instinctive thing.. no... it is a nurture not a nature... why have I never learned until now, when I am 4 and 20 years?!

I close the chapter in my life that was Brendan. I open a new chapter..

Now I devote this blog to exploring myself. My true love. My shadowman... Me.